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27 October 2010 @ 10:36 pm
I Could Use Somebody 
jongkey; angst; PG-13
Jonghyun comes late into dance practice at 11 o'clock when it slipped his mind that it actually started at 9. He runs in, excuses and all, as he drops his backpack next to a pile of jugs and towelettes. The members and the choreographers stop and look at him, shaking their heads and go back to work, as if Jonghyun's tardy situation had never happened. Jonghyun takes his place beside Kibum and gets a little lost in the dance, but eventually remembers when he turns his head to Onew and Minho.

"What happened?" Kibum whispers as he hits Jonghyun's toned wrist against his pale one.

Jonghyun only smiles like a teenage girl. "Sekyung noona." he responds, following Kibum's moves into the dance.

Kibum can only respond by his lips, forming a small 'o' and no longer speaking. He avoids eye-contact with Jonghyun the whole practice and once the dance is done, he lies down on the wooden floor clutching his pink jug, panting and sweating. The other four sit around him, taking their respective phones and jugs.

"Jonghyun, where have you been?"  One of the choreographers asks the vocalist from afar, arms crossed over his chest.

Kibum can see, from his well-used peripheral vision, that Jonghyun's lips twist, purse and tighten, like he doesn't know what to answer. Simply because Jonghyun doesn't want anyone to know, absolutely no one (except Kibum) that he's dating. He was scared if anyone did know and so was Kibum; moreover, Kibum was scared that Jonghyun might forget him. He sits up quickly and pats his best friend on the back. "He overslept. Very deep sleeper, you know. Slept through fireworks once."

The choreographer just rolls his eyes. "Just don't do that again. You know how tardiness is tolerated here, Jonghyun."

"Yes, I do," Jonghyun replies, smiles then says, "I guess no more late-night selcas, huh, Kibum-ah?"

The rapper responds with a smile for a facade. Fear, betrayal, disappointment, frustration and jealousy were all the things that threatened to break that smile, bubbling in Kibum's heart. Kibum was scared for both of them, the fans' responses and the reputation and unity of SHINee-- he didn't want the whole John-Lennon-Yoko-Ono thing to happen to their group, to their strong friendship. Disappointed, no less, in himself. Why did he feel so uncomfortable around him? He should be a better friend and be happy, or at least try to.

What Kibum really wants to do is throw Jonghyun's annoying cellphone out the window since it's the only thing he's been touching ever since a month ago. And it's stupid how Jonghyun smiles, blushes over a girl Kibum tells himself. But in reality, the same thing happens to me when I'm around you. He hates how he starts lying (an action he despises the most in this world) for Jonghyun, all for the sake of friendship, everyone thinks but it's really because this is how I'm starting to accept what you're doing.

That night, Kibum simply lays down on his bed, stares at the ceiling and thinks about how incredibly ridiculous it is to fall for someone, how he solely knows what the line is between admiration and love.

Maybe he could just use somebody.

Somebody like Jonghyun.
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: Paramore
קיסרית  ויולטaaliyah_babygul on October 27th, 2010 03:28 pm (UTC)
It's so bittersweet and I just want to cry because I do believe that kibum is hurt in a way. Fuuuuuuuuu
AD: Krystal and her Love Meteradcore on October 27th, 2010 03:47 pm (UTC)
I feel the same way. ;______; But we don't know how SHINee feels about this, really. IDK. I guess Kibum is proud of Jjong?

Thanks for reading. <3
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ADadcore on October 27th, 2010 04:01 pm (UTC)
/huggles you and cries ;____;

really, i love jjong. i'm not enraged. i guess i was just over-whelmed when i saw. ;___; why does he have to be so perfecccct.

we should be proud, riiight? but why is it so haaaard? DX

thank you, hon. <3 i hope what key feels is real.
nanceh: realitymad_nux on October 27th, 2010 04:24 pm (UTC)
Why won't tears stop coming out T____________T
oh myy I feel for Kibum </3
ADadcore on October 28th, 2010 04:54 am (UTC)
aww. don't cry! D: keep the faith, darling. <3 believe what you want to believe. don't let what happened stop you.

everyone feels for him. </3 ;___; thank you for reading. <3
future M.D.jcqlnmarcos on October 27th, 2010 04:36 pm (UTC)
What Kibum really wants to do is throw Jonghyun's annoying cellphone out the window since it's the only thing he's been touching ever since a month ago.

~will I ever get over this depression? :((

I am happy for Jjong and all... but I can't help but feel sad for JongKey :((
ADadcore on October 28th, 2010 04:56 am (UTC)
cheer up. :) you'll move on soon. <3 don't get depressed, okay? you're just ruining your day like that. just think jongkey thoughts. :)

i feel the same way. </3 thank you for reading. <3
daydreamer: jongkey 01czu_1391 on October 27th, 2010 05:09 pm (UTC)

why is this so sad? ugh... no! i will not cry!

nicely done. and i love this song so fist pump for that!
ADadcore on October 28th, 2010 04:57 am (UTC)
nuuu! don't cry! ): there's been too much crying and all we need to do is keep the faith!

thank you! i love this song too~ <3

thank you for reading. <3
Harkharkk on October 27th, 2010 05:15 pm (UTC)
i liked. :D i love anything angsty. /glomps.

though if i were to point out, jonghyun's older than shin se kyung by 2 months so.. yeah she's not a noona. ^^;

still, i loved how you brought out key's feelings. :DDD
ADadcore on October 28th, 2010 04:58 am (UTC)
/glomps back XD Thank you.

oh lol sorry. XD i just recalled either lee minjung or shin sekyung being called 'noona' in HB. i'll keep that info in mind. ;)

thank you~! <3 and thank you for reading. <3
popcorn with saltpopcorn_heart on October 27th, 2010 09:11 pm (UTC)
Why so angsty? TT So sad and how Key covers up for Jjong. =( KOL's Use Somebody is ♥ :D
ADadcore on October 28th, 2010 05:00 am (UTC)
because the author felt angsty? XD

KOL itself is <3.

thank you for reading. <3
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ADadcore on October 28th, 2010 05:02 am (UTC)
yes! always keep the faith! <3 don't let it stop you from believing~! /gives you tissue <3

Thank you for reading. <3
jadepolishjadepolish on October 28th, 2010 07:27 am (UTC)
B'aww that was lovely. ;__; <3
ADadcore on October 28th, 2010 08:20 am (UTC)
Thank you! ^^ Thank you so much for reading, too. <3
Caramel: chulliebopeep_achu on October 31st, 2010 10:36 pm (UTC)
so sad, bittersweeet love

ADadcore on November 1st, 2010 08:39 am (UTC)

bittersweet indeed.

thank you for reading~! <3 and letting your GIF grace the presence of this page.
thebrideinasuit on November 2nd, 2010 01:07 pm (UTC)
WRYYY DID I NOT NOTICE THIS SOONER. I'm sorry I fail. XD Arghhh, i <3 it. D: At least Key bby is betterrr~
ADadcore on November 2nd, 2010 01:14 pm (UTC)

thank you <3